Public Thnx4 Journal

I feel much better today and so does my family. I am happy to be motivated to clean!

It was hard to choose between specific experience or a privilege.
I was struggling with meditation and prayer this morning. I was not feeling super connected and felt very distracted with chores and responsibilities that were waiting for me. I ended my prayer with expressing sorrow about the disconnect and distractions, and also expressed a desire to connect. I decided to quickly read a daily devotional from a book called “Daily Joy” by Russell M. Nelson. The scripture shared made me feel a thing- I felt a tug, a connection. I decided to write a little in my journal about the scripture and feeling.
WOW! I felt an outpouring of love and information! Hi felt and still feel such joy and energy right now!
It may sound crazy to some- and I get it, but this isn’t a still true-
I believe in personal revelation!! I feel so connected to my Heavenly Father and Jesus Christ. I am grateful for this experience of feeling disconnected, expressing the desire to be connected, and having such a quick response to that expression. I am grateful for scriptures, and how easily the can be accessed. I am grateful for this challenge, and an additional place to express my gratitude.
The scripture I mentioned: Doctrine and Covenants 137:9

I’m so grateful for having a Sunday morning to collect myself, take things slow, and figure my way through a couple of situations and deliverables today.

I’m so grateful for having a Sunday morning to collect myself, take things slow, and figure my way through a couple of situations and deliverables today.

I had an interest experience while meditating and praying. I recognized an answer to prayer.

For Rafik driving

doy gracias por mi creatividad y mi capacidad de encontrar lo que necesito

I had a presentation today at it was very good, was about meaning

It has been a long while since I've felt positive feelings by sitting and recalling simple accomplishments, activities or "good things" that have occurred in the day. Grateful for the good feelings. Grateful that this activity that has brought some measure of pleasure in the past is doing the same now.

I love to watch this tree outside my home... It is home to so many birds, including hummingbirds who dart in and out all day long. It's a buzzing factory for the bees, and a feast for the eyes with its furry little blossoms that glow in the sunlight.

My son's mother, Shelly, has early onset dementia. I don't feel even a tiny bit grateful for anything connected to this experience, which has shaped our lives and possibilities for more than ten years. However, I've found during the past few months that my depression over this event has started to slide into sadness, and my anger is starting to look more like grief. I seem to be more able to say the words "early onset dementia" aloud and talk about it in a more matter-of-fact fashion. In other words, though I have good days and bad days, just like Shelly does, it seems I am becoming more accepting of the situation. We're heading into the holidays and Shelly will be staying with us through Christmas (she splits her time between living with us and with her father in Hawaii). I can't say that I feel grateful for that; Liko and I struggle much more to get through our days when she's here. But being in this somewhat more settled place seems to help me to better support them and help them to negotiate their own grief. I'm grateful for that, for what it's worth.

I felt sick yesterday but better than the day before. I am allowing this 3am entry bc the 11 am drop is a bit late. Anyway I played with my granddaughter and it was wonderful.