I’m grateful to be alive. I went through a lot of extreme trauma in the first half of my life that I am now dealing with in therapy. I’m just happy that I’m alive, I’m in a loving, long term committed relationship, that I have a good job and generally a good life. I beat the odds! My past still haunts me and definitely has a negative impact on me, I suffer from PTSD and major depression, but I’m just so grateful that I have a good life now.