Public Thnx4 Journal

It has been a long while since I've felt positive feelings by sitting and recalling simple accomplishments, activities or "good things" that have occurred in the day. Grateful for the good feelings. Grateful that this activity that has brought some measure of pleasure in the past is doing the same now.

I love to watch this tree outside my home... It is home to so many birds, including hummingbirds who dart in and out all day long. It's a buzzing factory for the bees, and a feast for the eyes with its furry little blossoms that glow in the sunlight.

My son's mother, Shelly, has early onset dementia. I don't feel even a tiny bit grateful for anything connected to this experience, which has shaped our lives and possibilities for more than ten years. However, I've found during the past few months that my depression over this event has started to slide into sadness, and my anger is starting to look more like grief. I seem to be more able to say the words "early onset dementia" aloud and talk about it in a more matter-of-fact fashion. In other words, though I have good days and bad days, just like Shelly does, it seems I am becoming more accepting of the situation. We're heading into the holidays and Shelly will be staying with us through Christmas (she splits her time between living with us and with her father in Hawaii). I can't say that I feel grateful for that; Liko and I struggle much more to get through our days when she's here. But being in this somewhat more settled place seems to help me to better support them and help them to negotiate their own grief. I'm grateful for that, for what it's worth.

I felt sick yesterday but better than the day before. I am allowing this 3am entry bc the 11 am drop is a bit late. Anyway I played with my granddaughter and it was wonderful.

Feeling grateful for having tasted scones after mlre than a half year later than I would have expected, and they were amazing.

JD said today I might have been born in the wrong generation for liking blink so much. May be, but I also feel grateful zbout the current pop punk wave, because blink and Sum made me miss this sound in my own years, and that I have found it almost two years ago, has been the best music Ive listened to, grateful for being on the wave and it's not done yet

I have a fair amount of tumult happening in my life right now, with lots of outcomes dependent on other outcomes. It's a time of uncertainty. But this morning as I was doing yoga, I noticed the sunlight streaming through the window in this little room I'm in. And I was so grateful that I am in a safe place, a comfortable place, a place that I can stay in while my husband and I sort things out that doesn't feel like a burden.

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Learning and practicing mindfulness daily!

I believe I'm getting sick, but I just feel exhausted and that's the best kind of sickness. I just have to sleep, and I enjoy sleeping.

November gratitude #3: I’m grateful to be able to joyfully read again. In 2020-21, I was not able to read for pleasure; it felt like being dropped into a well. Today, I seem to have returned to pre-pandemic reading levels, and I am so, so grateful for that.

In this picture, you see current/recent reads, or at least the ones that were still hanging around my bedside. Right at the moment, I’m bouncing between Middlemarch and Michael Moorcock’s The End of All Songs.

A ton of delicious food a recent friends-giving -- all of it home made and time with fiends enjoying it.