I woke up this morning as I have woken most of this week, with a sense of inner sadness and anxiety. My work has been extremely tough, my mind and body are exhausted. The early starts and late nights bypassing and frustrating my attempts to quel my unruly feelings. This morning I woke up the same sadness, panic, fear and depression. But no meetings, no things to do, just myself and the weight of the world on my chest making it hard to breathe. I stumble through writing my journal and all the time I feel my sadness pinning me down I don't know how I can go though the weekend feeling like this. I start to think about what I am grateful for and in a flash it comes to me..
I am grateful for the time to be sad, upset, paniced and depressed. Feeling those things throughout the week, it's hard to see any way out from them. It is easy to forgo those feelings for the sake of work or committments. Having the time to feel my feelings and explore them are a luxury. Feeling sad is part of being human, and making the time for that is so important in understanding my mind, body and spirit. So today I am grateful for the time to let my feelings in, to understand them, to know them and accept them for what they are.